Part1: A Letter To 'You'

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dearest you,

it's been 3 DECADES. and i'm sure you'll reach the figure of 31 this may soon. so why am i writing this letter to you? i believe in this 'cruel' yet amazing world we have to tell and share things together. at this moment, i know that you are pretty alone. you know what i mean? but trust me then, wonderful creature like you absolutely not alone! and if you said you’re quite feeling blue with unstable emotion, these are also not true. i know know the feeling of living without a perfect family environment currently. yes it may be true living with a m** by your side without a f***** beside is not good to your inner feeling. especially when you really need to see a real role of a g*** man for you to find your 'imam' at this age. but wait! u have to be strong and have faith. i know lately you are sometime have to live with different roles. sometime as a 'brother' , and some other time as  a 'man' to some others at the same time as a 'husband' to yourself . *funny but true*. and i am very sure these are the reasons why most of the time you always feels like few people esp. men are a totally STRANGERS to you.  And that’s not a good news because you always seems FORGET to behave and be like a real woman for your own good.

remember looking back 15 years ago. how you used to act like a someone else who is not ‘a real you’ like now? i know being 'not you' wasn’t your first choice. yet it’s just a ‘fun-season’ during school days huh. but no worry dear.

and comes 2000 . few things changed a little by a little. and you started to find it’s hard to understand yourself.

my little girl…

see beyond anything. please lemme share few words and just consider it from your biological f***** . when choosing a a man, don’t you ever evaluate Adam by how much money he has. Look for the quality like he will be able to be a leader and guide you to Jannah. Pray from now he’s the one who can be an ‘Imam’ to you and your children. A man who is also respect his mother. Love his mother. And love his family. And loving man to his own family members. Cause once he love and respect women around him, he willing to love you the best he can. And find a man who you can lay your head on his shoulder. And share any stories that you wanna share with him.

Remember!

Looks do not last. Pray that you both can COMPLETE each other. Why? Because at the end of the day…as a woman,  as muslimah lady  and as a wife one day , Jannah is your goal!